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January 01, 2009 - 365 Photos

I still have to upgrade to a Flickr pro account, but for now I'll be taking and posting the pictures to LJ and Facebook...

...I'm going to try to take a picture a day throughout the year of myself, for good or for ill.



As you can see, I'm not very happy in this photo. That would be because I just weighed myself on the Wii Fit and was horrified by the result (184 pounds! The heaviest I've EVER weighed). That's just craziness. It's going to be better, more moderate eating and an exercise plan for me for a while (and hopefully even when the weight is gone)...(and I don't care if the exercise is just Wii Fit for now...I'm not going outdoors to run or something in this cold...but, in the spring, I'm finally buying that ten speed bicycle I've been wanting again for so long).

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njbearcub1
Jan. 2nd, 2009 02:57 am (UTC)
I think you're adorable, and you being in a Threadless shirt only adds to it.
bfirrera
Jan. 2nd, 2009 03:54 am (UTC)
Thank you....but, this really is the biggest I've ever been.

I'm 41 now. I don't want this to continue.

I don't expect to get back to my high school/college weight, because frankly it wasn't very healthy in the other direction (116-125 lbs). My very lowest as an adult was an extremely unhealthy 103 back when my grandfather was dying in 1990 (depression and worry suppressed my appetite severely).

I'd love to be somewhere in the 135-145 range and hopefully build up some muscle, too.

I'm just not getting any younger and I want to live a longer life with/for Paul.

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It's also, for me, a problem simply because I'm having trouble fitting into clothes and my budget just can't afford a bigger waist line...heck in those slimmer days, I used to wear a size 27 waist!! I'm now up to 36 waist. Never mind the 34 waists that I can just barely get into (almost feeling like I need a shoehorn or some Pam, and they leave imprints around my waist), I'd love to get into a 32 waist again!

I know half of it is the sedentary lifestyle I've allowed myself to fall back into. Now that I'm not working, I spend a lot of the day one way or another sitting in front of some kind of screen, be it computer or television. Of course, when I'm sitting at the television, because of my need to multitask (at the computer, I'm usually surfing, carrying on a conversation on Twitter and listening to podcasts/audiobooks/music) I tend to just start eating...sometimes before I know it I've gone through an entire bag/box of chips/cookies or a handful of candy bars. I just want to start paying better attention to that stuff.

Another concern for me, especially at this age, is diabetes. I've not had my blood sugar tested in quite some time (I'll be honest...I haven't really had a check up in quite some time, though I'd like to rectify THAT as well) and while it wasn't high in the past, my family history includes my grandmother who died from complications to diabetes. There's also a history of heart disease amongst family members. It's all so scary.

Finally...I want to look good naked. ;P Even though I'm married now, I still go to nudist parties with P.A.N.G. and go to the beach in the summer and don't want to gross people out with all those rolls and bulges I'm seeing from my body...there's a big difference between the way I look squeezed into these clothes and the reality. I've already got a bald pate and grey hair...I don't need something else working against my favor!
njbearcub1
Jan. 2nd, 2009 04:05 am (UTC)
First up, as someone who thinks that gray hair on a balding head is something that goes in the plus column, I won't be hearing any of that.

I can definitely understand wanting to do it to be healthy. I'm always fighting the battle, and my doctor and my husband would both like me to lose some weight. I'm not at the peak I was two or so years ago, but I'm up there. I'm at around 265-270 right now. in 2004, after surgery and a long stay in the hospital, I went from 257 down to 213, but I hated the way I looked at that weight, so I gained it all back.

All of my pants are shorts right now. I'm too nervous to even try on my old long pants to see if they fit, because I don't want to buy the next size up, like you. Both for moentary reasons, and because it'll be a sense of defeat.

I haven't been to Sandy Hook in a few years due to lack of free time, and I don't know if I would at this weight. I'm okay with people seeing me in pictures, because I can control the angle, and the lighting. In person is a different thing.
cuervolinda
Jan. 2nd, 2009 07:41 am (UTC)
Shut UP Already, You Are Kate Moss!!
If it's any consolation, the last time I weighed myself I was 196. Now I do NOT get on scales. 184 is downright petite in my world.
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